A bombshell struck a nerve...

A bombshell struck a nerve when I was trying to fall asleep tonight. I don’t know where it came from or why it happened but my brain can’t stop thinking about all the mistakes I’ve made in the past years and the pain I endured. I honestly feel like something punched a hole in my heart. I’m no longer as connected with those I care about. I’m no longer in school so I no longer see my friends on a daily basis and I’m disconnected to the ones I’ve made on the internet and some just stopped talking to me and removed me (from contacts or friends) without a word. The lost of three major family members and numerous pets seems to have comeback and hit me all at once again. Not to mention I’ve had three failed relationships two of them being minor and with people I’m still friends with but the other was a girl I would consider my first love but she flirted and cheated behind my back then ripped my heart out and grinded it to dust. I stop at pursuing my dream of being an animator and now I fear I don’t have the time between work, family and friends to pursue it now. I probably sound like a whining bitch right now but my head is heavy with regret, loneliness, and sadness… now I’m going to try and sleep again… maybe I’ll feel better then…